If there were ever a place for blind faith in Buddhism it would be here. Once more i find myself on the brink of financial insecurity as a result of the fortunes of my business and am i determined not to give fear any ground. Yes, I will make changes and plan for lab times but I refuse to allow a sidebar change in fortune to knock me off center again.
The past few years have been rough and, despite my hopes that our fortunes had changed for good, that is simply not the case. Worse than the money problems, however, was what i allowed my practice to become. Come hell or highwater I now make the firm aditthana to maintain my practice and practice commitments if it is the lay thing i do. Doing so will require great faith or something like it but, really, what is this life for?
I certainly don’t want to look back on this life and realized i had squandered it trying to relentlessly pursue a security that samsara cannot provide.