This morning, despite receiving underling news about my business, I made the determination to sit regardless. After about a half an hour I realized that the mind was getting pulled away and stuck on the myriad worldly thoughts that looped again and again. Luckily I recalled the thought of death at that point and began to spend time reflecting first in the parikamma “mahanama.” I soon switched to actually positing the idea trust today I would die and imagine scenarios where this would happen.
What is interesting about today’s experience is that it was so much more vivid than our normally is when I come to it dry. To me, the fact that the recollection of death touched on so deeply is proof that they’re was at least a modicum of concentration. Small victories like these are all I need to keep pursuing the path and I am thankful to the Lord Buddha for his Teaching and dispensation.