For modi of my adult life the default setting of my view of the world has been admittedly pessimistic. Despite this, or perhaps because of it, I have been able to stick with my practice of the Dhamma doggedly. Yer it is now becoming clear to me that what was once helpful has now turned into something wholly unskillful and I need to find a way to see the world in a better light.
Somewhere, deep inside, came a cover urging me to see the opportunities for practice, for release and for delivering in the good where I have forever before been sick on the negative. It’s like a pear with a torn spot in it. Sure I could spend my time dwelling on it, thinking good terrible it is that the pear has been marred like this and indulging in fantasies about how it might be possible to prevent rotten spots in the future but hope would that help me on my path? Why not just eat around it and leave it to the side? Unless I decide that my ultimate purpose in life is to find perfect pears I should give up dwelling in rotten pear induced negativity. Instead, went not take the opportunity to contemplate impermanence, not self and dukkha? Any not be grateful for the pear? Why not practice the path by means of appropriate attention?