Despite the fact that things are lining up well to support my practice I am paying through a period where much of the formal training through walking and sitting meditation is only happening due to will power. In fact, it feels like an act of will just to write this. And, yet, I know that this too shall pass.
This morning I knew it would be best to spend some time cultivating metta bhavana and was relieved that I could feel the upswelling of warmth as I wished myself well. I think a lot of snafus happening has to do with bodily fatigue and a strong craving to experience states of concentration. Where there is craving, that’s is clinging and so on through becoming into birth and suffering. Knowing this may I cultivate equanimity and ever move forward along the path.