The last week has been rough largely due to my own lack of restraint. I seem to have slipped from compassion to resentment and just couldn’t figure out how to put the brakes on. The stress of my wife’s upcoming return to school and the impending birth of our third has made our home a virtual pressure cooker and I have not been practicing enough to meet all of this with a still and tender heart.
Today is a new day, however, and I have recommited myself to the practice, my aspirations and to sitting for at least an hour a day. And, even though I’d rather not share specifics, I feel making this aditthana public will give it more strength. I also intend to spend more time cultivating metta because I can feel overwhelmed at times by focusing overmuch on karuna. My tentative plan is to spend my morning sit working mostly with loving-kindness and the evening with compassion. We’ll see how it goes but a warm, open heart and a better way to start the day than a great that trembles at the suffering of all beings. At least, it seems that way today.