I have been dealing with a lot of disappointment lately in daily life and on the cushion. In both places it often seems as though I’m not making progress or am backsliding. I can literally spend thirty minutes on the cushion without ever progressing beyond a sense of general ease (which is a great accomplishment in itself). Clearly, there is much pain and longing for peace and ease.
The solution, as far as I can see it, it’s just to keep at it. Feeling the ickiness and disappointment as it arises and constantly returning to the fight. There’s no magic pill and this is the work of lifetimes but it can certainly seem impossible at times. This is when faith is called for and, for the time being, I have an abundance.